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ehh..tmr need to wear the u..it's like soo dull
makes pple look old..then like ..
i noe some of my frens in ct..but dun seem to be like them.
dun think they like me..
wadever. :p
green to brown very diff lor..
decaying leaf.
hahaa.
sian liao :|
gotta remb.to buy sumthing.
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yup
gt into 3c...phy chem mth combi.
dunno happy or sad.
still cannot access my blog.
must be the comp. :then like..me want to take ecns.
OR NOT?
aiyar..
confused me.
getting old liao
cant think clearly too.
bleahs...
need to make new ct frens & bonding agn.
but samantha ard!
soo gd news there.. :]
sTiLL
gonna miss s7c.
it's realli a great memory to cherish
*sighs*
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well.it's been a gd week for some..& nt soo gd for the others.junelle & jun long managed to appeal thru band.but gie was quite sad abt it.mabbe she realli wants to get out of her jc now.seems like she realli doesnt like it.hmms.it's gd tt i have some company.but mabbe nt in my ct 'cause they all like takg some other courses.i dun think i can do f mths.ju was tellg me tt u need the passion to do f mths.yar. :she also said tt ecns was better for me. i guess so.i seem to be resigng my fate to taking S04 :phy ecn mth.I DUNNO why i feel this way.kinda uneasy.im scared.REALLI.i do hope i can get into phy chem mth though.they realli like didnt call my name out to talk to me abt the combi.dun tell me it's settled? IS tt gd?? :| *crosses fingers * i hope it's gd news for me.
later on i'll be gg for band tuning-in session.nvr heard frm gie tt shes coming too.mabbe she shldnt have rejected my sch to go to elsewhere for the first three mths.then she wld have stand a better chance of gg there.then she looked quite sad.hope tt shes alright.
like the p always say..its the same in any jc.if u just work hard..u'll still get into u mah.i think we shldnt place so much emphasis on the rankg..although we cant help doing so sumtimes.
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Reflection
Look at me, you may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, it's as if I play a part
Now, I see if I wear a mask,
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow, I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
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wahhh.i cannot access my blog.tried a dozen times but didnt seem to work.today we started lectures..but b4 tt. we had to listen to the principal & vp talk abt the sch.then they had soo many announcements abt the combi thingy..
even called out names for pple who needs help wif their selected combi.mine wasnt called.dunno gd or bad.. :\ aiyar.then the rest of the lectures were soo borg.w/o ct frens like soo diff.didnt sit wif og summore..
plus. i was SUPER tired today.. dragged myself to sch.mum even said i looked sick b4 i left for sch.mabbe im sick.[thinkg too much on the combi.thing.]
pple worry abt nt being able to appeal thru.yet i worry for my combination.i feel very insecure & uneasy abt it lor.hope it turns out fine for me.Pray`hard.
better learn to calm my nerves & contrl my anger.[angry for nt doing well for chem]..im going to burst soon. (into tears)..*sob*
BUT things WILL GET BETTER!
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gosh.
realli sadd.dunno whether can take chem lor. i mean they didnt allow me to take it.
i have to appeal for it..SCARED! 2nd choice then put phy ecn mth..cause the other choices include computing.dun know.dun realli like it.
today's orientation was tiring..running ard for mass games.
today they had the band audition for pple appealg.hope they (my friends) can make it.
sian.nt tt i nt enthu.the pple nt fun bah. oops!
pray tt my application is successful.budden if nt how? :\
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o2 was still the same.except i knew a bit more ppl.
me.para.caveat & desmond were tokg abt the class. realli miss 04S7C...soo sad nt a lot of pple ard anymore!
learnt the other dance.at least my partner wasnt tt slow.hmm.
went sentosa for orientation.quite ok lar.
then walked ard the island for games & pts.think we did quite well.
though we cheated. :p
xuande was sooo happy hearg us call him yandao.'cause we wanted to see the answers for the qns. the piece of paper ended up torn! hahaha..
budden..we have to think abt choosg combi..mabbe phy chem mth lor. i dunno.
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a realli (x 1000) bad day for me..
first..meetg new pple is NOT wad im realli gd at..then it's the prob.of switchg clans.like evrytime they ask for a cheer.. i almost shouted out talon...lucky i shut my mouth in time. :P
next thing was..we had soo many talks today..sittg in LT4 frm 11.30 to 3.30 pm IS SOO NOT FUN! the uni. talks..subject talks were gd enuf to bore us to death..it was the 2nd time we're hearg tt..then we had to sing the sch song..aww sian~
mass dance sucked big time...my partner was quite slow...the 1st time i tried the dance.i wasnt tt slow lor.we didnt have the mo4 qi4 too..too bad.hahaa.it was rather sad nt to see some of my ct frens..miss them loads! at least wif them.. i am much more comfortable mah..i think i rather have ct lessons!! nobody i know in my og too!
gosh..hope the day improves as we know each other better. and more pple turn up for the programme they have leh..not ponn sch or appeal!
hmm.hope those appealg in can make it lar.then i'll have more frens here.im kinda worried for takg chem at 'a' lvl..they say the best is a B3 & above..& u guys know how i did for chem...*SOB SOB* arghhhhhhh.somebody comfort me leh..
gonna break dwn soon. :\
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ehhhhhh.no gd! i dun like it anymore.
like evryone gg elsewhere..then like no one wants to stay.grace gt into anderson..hmm.mabbe she'll like it there. :\
i gt a call frm my ogl.im in klingon now.argh.can i complain? it's been realli bad..like so unlucky! the orientatn thingy is gg to start agn.more ice-breakers & talks!
hope tt my new og will have some pple i know..so i wont feel so awkward.
still cant believe it ... *sigh*
dunno whether im still lookg forward to sch on monday`
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anyway..just got my results..got posted to ny.
gd? at least i dun end up sumwhere i didnt put in my choices.
to those who didnt get wad they want..dun worry..u'll fit in anywhere perfectly!
hahaa. smile always :]
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went for band practice agn.act didnt want to show my face there but dun want to seem soo mean..yar lor.it was rather boring.gt a new piece for me to sight-read.& if u do not know yet.. im terrible at sight-readg..esp. when i havent read notes for >3 mths!
the conductor was askg all of them to bring back their instru. but i DIDNT! ehh. feel a bit bad abt it! but well..i dunno! then just now read my tag-board..jl & cav. asked me to stay bah..i remb sumbody sayg today tt he didnt want to stay hor...hmmmS.cant help but feelg lazy lor.gie & ju were sayg tt aj & sa bands are all soo happeng..a bit xian mu lor.i mean i dun even know if we have 1/2 the enthusiasm in this band..
sudd. thot of sumthing.the conductor's gettg married this week..cant believe it! I was rather shocked..oops :P hahaha..i have such a borg day.evryday! sian~
yar lor.zhao zhi dao we go out today hor..ber!
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the bbq was okayy i guess. i was rather late..but i went on my own! tt's an accomplishment on its own! :] hahaa..anywys.finally saw alvy for the first time in like...WEEks? i dunno .. it's been a loong time..& we were wearg pink t-shirts too! hahaaha.we ate,played & ...had a soap war? haha.it was soo stupid! jl & the rest started it lor..most of the pple ard the area kena soap on their hands & faces too! then para was soo ke lian.. had to chase his wallet for some time..then it was sandals then..money..! ahhaa..who ask him bring $50 to the bbq? the food was good.thnks to anj & her mum for helpg us prepare..we had the job of eatg the food up :] yar lo.. some pple nvr come! it was supposed to be a CLASS outing! but well..it was kinda expected..it was always the same few pple.hmms. nxt time must drag them here..hehees.the bbq pit was near the swimmg pool & we saw quite a no. of children..& strange pple who have c-cup (or rather G-cup) u know..soo it's realli horrible to see` :\ we were tokg abt it while chompg on chicken wings ... hahaa .gracie shld know wad im tokg abt..anywys..took the e-w line home..lucky gt pple pei if nt i will get loST ! me super lousy wif the mrt thingy... :P
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ooohh..just received a calll frm anj. tellg me tt the bbq is afternoon (12.45 at bukit gombak) ! okayy. mabbe im a bit slow lar..i thot it was at night! oops :p ..hahaa..lookg forward to the bbq..yups
anyway..was abt to say..i just came back frm ny band pract. cant believe i act went for it !..act. it was just to pei2 my frens who are tryg to appeal thru band lar..me being such a nice & helpful girl ..hahaah :] ..it was rather boring. realli! i mean .. i hve lost touch wif my instru. clarinet. ..then all of a sudden im playg it agn. *sigh* plus.. the conductor was
wahhh.gie & ju were sayg it was quite (or TOO) cheena for them.i mean.. when ure in a cheena sch.. wad can u expect? oops. aiyar..they too used to sa & aj bah..nvm.still decidg whether to re-join band.sumone pls help me! dunno abt them lor..the conductor assumed we were stayg in band. i felt rather embarrased abt it...aiyar...
me very lor-soh. now. super dead liao. gosh!
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hahahaha.. been psycho-ing pple to get blogs ..latest victim is cheryl.she like dun want to hve one..so SAD..hmms... :] nvm. anyway.heard tt para just got one .jl also has one. tt's nice! i can add more links to my blog! yay! & soon.. (i realli hope it's soon. i'll be able to have a list as long as my darling sis's ..hoho)
obsessed wif findg new music.. i realli like this currrent song (it's first date by blink 182) .. a bit noisy compared to the prev. one..but i like~ ..hahaa.so funny readg all those tag-boards ard.. noticed tt gracie has been pickg a fight wif some pple arh..actually...no lar..it's caveat who's been actg cute..oops! haha.just kidding lar` to tell u the truth.. i prefer tag-boards.. at least it's easier to tag or write a msg mah...*hint hint* to jl & cav.
jus toked to faith at ard 12.15 pm.. it's 12 or 11 pm there.. she must be realli tired. but go offline liao.glad to hear tt she's doing fine~ yups..realli miss her big teddy bear hug though.(can it be described as tt? ) like no one hugs like her nowadays..sad.
heard tt shi ting got into klingon for ogl thingy.wif weiqi & sumitro (?) dunno who tt is .. yup.wonder if i end up in talon agn.. some realli gd counscillors are in klingon.no offense to the klingon pple though.i dunno why they made tt arrangement.shi ting still sms-ed me tellg me abt this arrangement.. like quite
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just checked out powerwebmusic.com for MORE music...guess wad? they have the Doraemon theme song! wad a surprise! plus..they now have the baha men song..hehee.anyways.it was quite a sian day.ju wanted me to go for the balloon hat fest @ sentosa..but dunno for wad reason i stayed at home. prob. too lazy to move.. also. dad wldnt allow. quite sad abt tt.
ber's frens came over for proj. work.as expected..woke me up frm my beauty slp.now im quite grumpy & hungry..AGN.quite irritating.now the routine is eat.sleep.watch tv. (or shld it be the other way ard?) wadever.holidays are here.dun realli noe whether i'll enjoy it..after all.. i still have to do my GP & AP WS for maths..sian~ plus chem tut. i think...pray tt i'll be able to finish them...aRGH!
i hate those pop-up ads! they shld realli BAN THEM ! ..can realli piss me off.then i'll start tokg rubbish until i finally close them all.dunno wad prob they have..kena dc for two times liao.. luckily i wasnt affected 'cause i am typg this thing now.hehees :]
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oh gosh.. im writg this one day late 'cause i was busy watchg AI after reachg home..hehee..disney on ice was quite gd i guess. except for little kids tt kept on kickg their seats BESIDE ME .. then tokg tokg...i must say.. the skaters were quite gd.. after all.they did all those twirls & ?? ..this guy was skating like "whoa.." realli cool..must see to know wad i mean..i didnt get those realli comfy seats,but the view was quite gd..i cld see them.. not their faces very clearly though..oh yeah..besides this..i was grimacing (?) at pple who sat on the wrong seatss ..haha
anyways.it was quite gd..went for the exhibition abt bodies. i dunno wad it's called.. haha.it was rather disgustg to see all those dead body parts. but i think u'll get used to it after a few rounds..gracie was also urmm..lookg for shuai4 ge1.. haha..'cause there were pple frm other schs ard.. hehees.quite interestg bah.
one last but impt thing : our phy grp WON the prizes for shootg the cannon the furthest.. up till the fifth drain on the grass patch in frnt of the bookshop..wahaha. we won cookies? ehh.quite bad
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today was partly good & bad.. :|
good news was we have this new classmate frm m'sia joing us for a few days & i must realli stress few days 'cause *sob sob* ..we are gonna separate liao. them right..we may not see each other agn.. unless we have a ct outg..was tellg shi ting today tt will miss havg my og grp & ct grp bah.. cause want to know them better mah.. aiyar.. hope junelle can get in (me too of cuz) then we can have fun.. but she may be takg arts..so lesser chances agn.she wants to join band ..hmm.. shld i too? a bit sian..lors
bad thing is .. i feelg very uneasy today.. dunno for wad reason..today many pple ponn sch..para act sick (i think) then gracie overslept (?!) hahas. i can just imagine tt ..soo farney.then alv. nvr come for how many days liao.. miss her presence.. sumbody ask her to come lehss. hehes. ohh. still got priya..guang rong, sek sheng, edwin & louisa..yups sunno whether got leave anybody out..hahah!
quite sian ..totally!
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hehes..today was quite an eventful day..(i suppose..) heard abt more (& more) new things..i skipped peers session today! *sob sob* for the third time summore..i feel realli bad ..but not tt i dun want to come but ive got sumthing on mah.. then right..my frens also ponn wif me.. so i dun wanna go alone!
tueday -- day of lectures ! we had chem lect. early for first period in the morn...sian lors.mrs huang was the lecturer..she kept on gg abt the electron stuff. anyways i was havg this gr8 chat wif vonne abt blogs! hahas.learnt tt she just got one. :] yupss..think the "enter" button on my keyboard is stuck or spoilt..cannot use! argh..
now then can.. hmms
well after chem we had maths wif the female teacher..not mr lee! but well.. we survived an hr of copyg notes. super sian! me kept on tokg..btw i didnt bring chem notes .. haha. we spent bio lect. doing a test! dunno whether can make it.hahas..ct period was mainly tokg.& going for an early lunch wif mrs anatha as a class. me. shi ping.vonne 7 grace took a table..found out tt we were all frm talon! hahas. we ate the same food too! whee!
gp was quite boring even i we had games .. tt guy kept askg when i go home.. dunno for wad reason .. ! a bit siao arh.. yups
maths was fun! even though we had math test which i cldnt finish..arggh.xue mei was laughg her head off..she was tickled pink ..literally. my joke realli tt funny meh..?
i onli said like 4 words mah.. haha now she like spreadg it like fire.whoa.me must be careful of XUEMEI!! haha..they all want to know! not very funny mah.. okie ..im gonna write it.. i said " heng gao (dao) lao sai!" onli those who speak dialect will know bah..i think..she said it's partly due to my expressions tt made it funny (?!!) okayy..fine
gonna miss my ct.. dunno for wad reason. hmmms :\ sad~
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cldnt believe..my sis is arguing wif zongtang over wad seems to be the most stupidest (no such word ?) topic..whether the word "squib" is frm harry potter..it turns out tt zt was right..hahas. real stupid right?
then now.. we are having this totally UNEXPECTED GUEST ( pissing me off ! ) in our hse now..always come for no reason..or rather just to watch some stupid movie wif my elder sis..ARGH! feel like bashg him up! grrr..it's bridget jones diary today ..sian
well..the next wk is gonna be a busy one.tests..projects..hw ! IT'S BEGINNING TO PILE UP!
whoa..dunno whether can handle..then today tt jia en was scolding me ....bu4 zhi1 si3 huo2 ...haha complaing to my sis.. -__________-"
soo funny .. & he was like ..."pls ??? dun kill me.. "
tt's abt it` luff my sis :] & myself (more..) haha
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cant believe i survived today..chem test was horrible..dun even know how to do the multiple choice qns! plus..bio was quite okayy. we did cheek cells & potato & celery (? hmm.nope) yups.zong tang even asked y i didnt blogg.hmms. must i do it evryday..?
so sian.anyway.. using my own angelfire account.in case my sis's bandwidth explodes (?!) haha...realli bad lar...im feelg quite moody these days.im soo worried for the chem appeal hingy..*SIGH* :[ also addg on to tt .. i have many other things to worry..im such a worrier. is there such a word? wadever.
dying soon~ *sigh* arghhh!!
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aiyarrr....super sian today.
i heard frm gracie tt edwin & zong tang have their blogs now..hahas .but the thing is .. evrytime i ask pple to have they all say "i too lazy" or "no time to blog arh.." etc. ..wadever. seen pple gettg a bit more .... cannot find the right words to sayy.. hmms
haha.. it was rather sad day for me.. im kinda moody .. almost had a cat-fight wif U-NOE-WHO..sian..not as if i care if i win. hahas
saw steph song.. so chioh!!!!!! she is tan yet nice .. soo xian4 mu4~ cool arh! hahas.
gotta link new pple ..YAY!!
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sudd. feel like blogging. but dun see others doing it (hmms.) well..nth's up act. heard tt tmr got og outing at SENTOSA + ct outg sumwhere bah. can i not go for either one? *sigh* cheryl kept askg me to go.. but feel like soo bad to reject.. yet i dun dare to ask my dad.. im soo sick.cannot slp for the past two days.dunno for wad reason..supposed to be able to slp in since there's no sch till wed. aiyar. better be careful wad i write in here.cause will kena get scolded for writg some stuff..hmms hahaah :] ..
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