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Been listening to Mad's Confessions.
Not bad i say,considering i dun normally listen to dance music (dunno if im regretting it! haha!) just not really used to the non-stop thingy.
Can't tell what song its playing. (:
Received the letter from SIM on sat. need to register for the uni already. tough questions,but think i'll be able to manage. *crosses fingers*
OH yeah. know this is rather late but YAY to Taylor Hicks in winning American Idol. At least they saw something special in him- that entertainer spirit.
oh wells. i still think Chris would make a even better one! :)
Would love to shop soon! puh-lease! :)
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Think ive suffered a loss in confidence after that incident.
GOSH. need therapy for that soon.
Don't like to feel sorry for myself.
will get out of this period soon.
HMMMMPH!
GSS is on! :D i wanna go out!
date me date me. (sounds desperate!) hehh.
PS. anyone wants to go to stnicks concert at KALLANG theatre? 27th Jun Tue.
got Band, dance, CO, string, choir etc. my sis insists its all Gold std. yeah la true. erm ticks at $15. yupp. msg me la. :D
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Now i'm truly disappointed. I don't know how I should really be feeling now actually. Anger, hate or just pure disappointment. And I do indeed wonder if our definition of 'good friends' differ so much.
I tried so much to do something to save our friendship. Wrote you 2 pages of letter to clarify things and you replied 'i dunno what to say',took up the initaitive to contact you and you told me i was the one who kept arguing.
After all that you said before: "i dunno when you will do it again...if i treat you as a good fren again, den you treat me as trash again."
Know what,the response i get after that letter i wrote made me feel like trash. Happy now? Haha.
I'm trying to make amendments. I'm putting the effort to make things right. I may seem to retaliate when we talk because I still don't get it. I don't see the effort from you.
I don't know who I am to you. Maybe it doesnt matter anymore. But why is it that you choose to respond and not at times. Afraid? And that response you gave me..I just want to say that it really wasnt what i expected. Maybe i shouldnt expect anything anymore.
It's really hard, you know.
; Unicode pls! feelings..
-Hate to keep things bottled in. But no choice-
It's a little disheartening to read about others and their blogs and see them feeling rather sad or something. Why so? i'm not too sure. Me either. Like WT,been rather moody. rollercaoster ride of emotions (as ive put it in a couple of posts before.) Dunno why it has re-surfaced again. (despite attempts to let it go.)
last night, was listening to my mp3 before i sleep. this song came up. reason why i love it is that it always made me feel better and that i seem to relate to it. cause like the song says "我知道潮落之后一定有潮起" so whats the big deal about it? :)
must learn to be stronger.
人生海海 by 五月天
有一天 我在想 我到底算是个什么东西 还是我
会不会 根本就不算东西 天天都漫无目的
偏偏又想要证明真理 别人从屁股放屁
我却每天每天都说要革命 就算是整个世界
把我拋弃 而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说 就让他去 我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什么了不起 常常我 豁出去 拚了命 走过却没有痕迹
可是我 从不怕 挖出我火热的心 手上有一个硬币
反面就决定放弃 嗝屁 但是啊在我心底 却完完全全不想放弃
常常我闭上眼睛 听到了海的呼吸 是你 温柔的蓝色潮汐
告诉我没有关系 就算真的 整个世界 把我拋弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定 所以我说 就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起 我不能忘记 无论是 我的明天
要去哪里 而至少快乐伤心我自己决定 所以我说 就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起 有什么了不起 啦啦啦 啦啦啦
明天我在哪里..
I learnt something recently. Not to hold on to things because of sentimentality, because i held it for some time. I need to let go when it's time to do so. Hence, i must throw away all those silly-billy rubbish thats piling up in my room! I hate to throw things away la. *points 'Nian jiu'* No la. it applies to Life too.
Some things have been bothering me. Don't think its that much of a problem with my friends involved. Maybe it's just me la. It's hard to sort it out cause the other party refuses to settle it. What my friend told me doesn't convince me. (okay. maybe im paranoid. but i dun think its that easily settled. you cant solve a prob thats lying there for so long with a sentence!) tried to thrash things out. but all i get was a lukewarm response.
And I don't want to make something else worse cause of my problems.
Sorry about yest.
Take it as it comes.
C'est la vie. :D
; happy mother's day!
Hmm. My 2nd sis insisted that it was mother's not mothers'. im still pretty confused myself. haha. anyway,kinda changed the post date. :D there's nothing wrong eh!
by the way, Mother's day was good. :) I spent the whole afternoon (literally) to bake a mocha choco cake for MUM! *beams* Okay, it wasnt that great-looking and it tasted so-so only. but it was my OWN effort. yeah you read that right. I did the cake 95% on my own. the rest 5% went to Mum for helping me fix up some stuff. hehhh.
I tell you ah. Baking isnt as easy as it looks! Esp when ure doing it alone. I think just making the mocha choco sponge cake took some time! (few hours?) lol. But i didnt mind. considering the sense of satisfaction when you see it change from a
it's hard work eh. did i mention that i woke up with muscle ache on my right arm?! I understand how much work the electric mixer does. :O hehh. my dad was surprised the cake could 'stand' even though i manually beat it. haha. the cake had cracks..and after the sauce was on it. it still looked messy! but oh wells. writing words with white choc was fun! looked a little squiggly, but rather decent i think. :D pretty good la.
and strawberries as decoration!
lala~
HAPPY MUM'S DAY again, mum! <3
ps. i took loads of pics! first time attempt mahh. cause for celebration! :D
; American not-so idol?
OMG. i was watching AI yest. was utterly horrified to see Chris Daughtry OUT! I mean, I seriously thought he's the winner this time round! *sob* read from the papers today his fans in USA are all protesting too. makes me wonder..aren't they the ones who are able to vote for him? My sisters and I were like standing so near the tv straining to hear the results. (my niece was bawling her eyes out you see.) we all agreed that he's the only one with idol-material. i mean can you imagine Taylor? or Elliot? (ok he sounds not-bad) or Katharine? I thought she'll be like the rest of the prev female Idol winners. sigh.
maybe i'll boycott AI now. haha.
on another note, Michael Buble is on tv now! and i agree with the DJs on Class95. he is such a entertainer! :)
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Can I just say I'm simply to lazy to blog? Nobody's reading anyway. lol. so I can just talk crap. hurhur. Not that there's anything interesting going on these days..I'm just a awfully boring person. that's the sad truth. (well AT least I think Im boring..):)
went chinatown market? saw SKINLESS frogs. they were dead of course. 3 of them lying on a piled of shaved ice. (and there was a sign that said no photo-taking. prob those tourists drove them mad taking pics!) it totally grossed me out. clung on to my mum while she was buying her taupoks! yummeh. heng i didnt see them skin it. (my mum & sis act saw the process before in that same market. and they said the frogs still jumped after being skinned. -DOUBLE GULP) below the 3 naked skinless frogs were a cage full of frogs. greenish-blackish colour. rough skins. UGH. but i have to admit..frog legs ARE nice. very springy. (like duh. after jumping for their whole life!) so while i was in the market, i was trying to avoid looking at the metal cages (cue screams!) cause 99.99999% have frogs in them. UGH! once my mum even pointed (or exclaimed) so i will look over to the FROGS. - -" but i thought it was nice market-ing. havent done that for some time. :D DESPITE the frogs. jump jump jump.
PS. i love frogs! (those non-real ie. STUFFED ones!) even have at least 2 super duper cute froggies! hurhur.
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Made a trip down to SIM AND chinatown alone myself.
gosh im so brave. considering i didnt get lost! *beams* but realised i'm really really indecisive. was walking around the store clutching a basket..the store asst prob thought im gna steal. lol! but still bought sth wrong for the 'great' ber.
excited over the prospects of many more new accessories! :D
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wan teng and i were talking. (still am actually..) and we found something similar. yest was feeling rather lonely (for some reason) then i couldnt think of someone to msg to. friends, but perhaps its hard to find a confidante.
talk later.
Right. IT is hard. and i absolutely hate it when people tell me im thinking too much. Okay maybe i over-react a little sometimes. but whats wrong?
